Hate to be all whiny (actually no la, it's my forte) but..... who's gonna remember my birthday now that all my besties are gone? ): Feel so awful having taken lynette for granted all those years she planned birthday surprises for me.. I am an undeserving cow sigh.

ALSO I MISS LAST YEAR'S BIRTHDAY WHEN THE CLASS SURPRISED ME WITH A TIRAMISU AFTER LIT LECTURE AND SANG HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOR ME THREE TIMES AND THIS IS A REALLY HUGE DEAL CONSIDERING THEY ARE, WELL, 11A10

Guys come back to me please ):::::::

Floating on cloud 9 errbady~~~

Last night in a mad rush to get ready for the fancy shmancy hotel dinner I got a text from the D&D comm inviting me to be Events Head on the main comm!! SO HONOURED and also very reminiscent of spearheading FO2 last year sigh I hope this means things will start looking up. I need a bit of rush in my life to get over everyone's wonderful photos of uk that are positively flooding my facebook feed.  

Hosted Hall 14's MAF last thursday. Ohmygawd HOW I HAVE MISSED EMCEEING. (Also, performed. AND HOW I HAVE MISSED PERFORMING TOO) Seriously, I have ares fc to thank for bringing me so much joy in jc and giving me so much experience cos I don't think I could have mustered the courage to do all this kind of shit right now otherwise. 

A bit awkward emceeing in front of people I barely know, admittedly - and it made me really miss emceeing during Tea, Tiffin & Poetry and FO1 - but great to get that rush back :') It really irks me though that people here think I have an accent/am not local and at times seem to not understand what I'm saying..... omg come on gaiz born-and-bred ahlian here thankz.

In other news I got bangzzz again ^^

As much as my female friends are being incredibly supportive and adorable, I have come to ascertain that bangs are a certified Man Repellant. I guess... nobody really wants to hook up with a 5-year old aye. Looks like I'm staying single till they grow out again.

Yep, very single indeed.


Also this is very bizarre because I got 57 hits on my blog yesterday like whut.

Is there such a thing as being friendsick? Just sent Grass off today and it suddenly hit home that all of my close friends have officially left. I can't just pick up the phone and call/text nette jing grass en-ting yux anymore, not without having to overcome a heart-wrenching timezone wait. I know I have these stupid hole-in-heart moments a lot but this one really takes the cake. Felt like crying the entire train ride back to sad little woodlands cos I feel like I don't have anyone anymore. And I know this is just gonna get worse in two years ish when luky/joel/lei leave too. It's not just the envy that they're moving on to something bigger and better, it's the realization that I'm the only one left back here missing their guts over enjoying what's supposed to be "the best experience of my life" (read: college). Everyone says it's hard for the person going overseas, for her to come back a changed person to everyone who's still expecting the old her, but I think people don't realize it's equally hard (harder, even) for those back home just constantly awaiting their return. 

I miss each and every one of you and even though I am so incredibly happy for you I wish you were all back here beside me.