I have so much on my mind lately it's driving me crazy. Especially because most of it is about uni apps and all that jazz. Whoever's reading this is probably sick to death of my constant posts/tweets about my whole uni situation and I think the whole friggin world knows I want to go to US. But everything's just such a big jumble in my head and I've been researching like crazy on the different unis, state safety levels, social life, essays, fees, EVERY BLEEDING DAMN THING I am just... inarticulate now. I don't know if I'm prioritising wrongly at the moment, esp with my math & econs grades being so amazingly shitty and prelims lurking around the corner but it seems like there's so little time left for applications too. I'm just so scared that at the end of the day I won't get into the uni of my choice(s), or I won't be able to finance my way through (esp if I don't get a scholarship), or even worse my grades don't get me anywhere and I'll end up being another pseudo-stopthepretence bemoaning my sad life story on a public platform. (No offence intended whatsoever; I actually pity her cos I don't think she intended for her thoughts to just become so viral)

And it's stupid that I'm whining so much now when the simplest thing to do is just sit down, screw my head back on and hit the damn books. But then again, I've always been a disgusting worrier so I'd probably just go mad from the combined mugging + worrying about uni apps + not doing anything to relieve said worries. Oh god I'm a mess.

Inserting a random photo from the lit trip last year so this place won't be so wordy.

Gosh it seems like ages ago that I was whining (again) on this blog about the chances of not being selected to go on the lit trip and my fierce need to go to UK. I miss uk like mad; surprisingly it ranks higher than the choir trip to Ireland. That said though, I'd never study in uk, I just don't think I'm suited for that kind of learning environment. Hence, america.

IT IS 12:31 I HAVE BEEN WEARING MY CONTACTS FOR GOD KNOWS HOW LONG AHHHHHH

Been googling and I'm finally gonna start on my common app essay ! I want to go to US so, so badly.

I have gotten a very recent, very bizarre fetish for shoes - the quirkier the better. Esp Jeffrey Campbells/ platforms with chunky wooden heels. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE GET ME THOSE ^ ): I'd get them myself but I recently blew 80 pretty ones on a pair from Nasty Gal~~ Eek omg so excited I can't wait for them to arrive !!!! I want to own all the shoes in the world.........................

Maybe then I'll be able to forget about all my shittyshittyittybitty grades

I'm doing really shittily for lit this is so so so depressing

Stumbled upon a lookbook-esque website called chictopia.com where the clothes and the models are all to-die-for. And they're not even models, they're just like regular bloggers who do OOTDs and all that jazz. Could have spent hours clicking and saving but I tell myself I have better things to do with my life... Here are a few of the prettier ones I really liked:

HER SHUZ

Music's finally over ! Glad that's done, even though my program + composition were incomplete aish. On to having a bit of fun before diving back into it all over again ):

I actually think not many people can find me now since I've changed my url but maybe that's for the better.

I've got one bleedin paper left and I know I should be grateful that I'm given so much time to prepare for it but honestly, 4 more days of housebound math+I&I WILL BE THE DEATH OF ME. Keep getting distracted and watching more youtubers again lalala~

And speaking of youtube, Joel finally uploaded the cover we did over the june hols. HAHA I kept rewatching it the night it went up but now I'm too embarrassed to click it again - I seem to sound and look worse with every progressive listen.. But yes anyway I'm glad to have gotten the chance to do that and to be honest, I'm pretty pleased that it's generating so much positivity from my friends :) Especially my sn girls oh gosh I miss them so.

In other news, I reactivated my twitterrrrrrr. @shlapstick is and will forever be legen-waitforit-dary teehee. Voice (and more math, ugh.) tomorrow and then I'll be spending my entire day at NY composing and then finally FINALLY IT WILL BE THURSDAY. Fingers crossed the paper will go well so I can go to ion with gen afterwards guilt-free. Gonna treat myself to one of the Topshop lipsticks I've been eyeing the past few weeks ^^ No I don't wear makeup but I do fancy introducing a bit of colour to my lips every now and then, so yes.

I CAN'T WAIT TO GO BACK TO SCHOOOOOOOOL